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this wedding has totally taken over my life since the month of november started...and now that december has finally crept in, there isn't a day that i work on a certain detail. yes, i can really feel the pressure now.

i have 19 days left before i leave for manila. that would mean 19 days more to prepare for the wedding, to do what i can do while i'm still here. upon arrival in manila, chris and i will face the wedding preparations ourselves. we will be meeting our suppliers one by one. we will finalize all details. we will meet our entourage. we will welcome our balikbayan guests. we will prepare all our wedding paraphernalias. all the things we have been working for for more than a year, we will face them all together. finally.

i'm taking a breather now before i go to sleep. i just had to write down all my thoughts at the moment or else i might get too emotional or irrational due to the pressure i'm feeling right now.

a part of me wants to cry. the advise given to me before that even if i do anything in my power for things to run smoothly, there will still be twists along the way is happening to me (to us) right now. no one is spared from this and i truly understand. and there are things that are really uncontrollable. but it just hurts, you know? now matter how prepared you are for the twists, it will still hurt you.

a bigger part of me is still grateful that things are happening now rather than later. that i (we) are told now rather than waiting for us to be back in manila. and all i have to remember now is that everyone who gives a damn about this wedding is excited---to see us and to be a part of the wedding. at the end of the day, that's all that matters.

now all i do is breathe....breathe...breathe....

this too shall pass....this too shall pass....

and tonight before i lay myself to sleep, this will be my prayer:

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// posted by ibyangbabe @ 8:22 PM